Log: Another Loss

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Edward was no stranger to the Sullivan household, even before Mr. Sullivan remarried Edward had been someone who visited every now and then. He had befriended Lydia in middle school and had had many random sleepovers. It helped that everyone assumed he was gay because he wore so much make up, the make up had only gotten worse since his father's death.

And here it was April 5th, the 18th anaversery to Kurt Cobain's death and Edward had as always wore black, a Nirvana shirt was on under the black button up shirt that was left open under it, and a pair of shades on most of the day. When asked to remove them he jokingly said 'I'm in morning, the passing of good music." was his response. He found it funny but part of it was he really did adore Nirvana.

Being as it was a 'holiday' on Friday they got to go home for a three day weekend. Edward's mother if one thing loved holidays and parties, only instead of coming home to his father's home to find it over decorated with Easter stuff like he expected and normally hated he found his mother's personal assistant sitting on the steps waiting for him.

"Hey Eddy." The woman spoke softly as Edward blinked a little stepping out of his father's old Cadillac he had inherited, the woman met him halfway from the car and the stairs. "Come sit down child, we need to talk."

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It was almost 9 pm when a hard knock came on the door of the Sullivan's Door. Edward was standing on the otherside, his hair was everywhere and his eyelinner was streaked down his face almost on mock Crow makeup. Only the way it steaked clearly he had cried it that way. He smelled of burbon and looked half drunk too. It was almost 2 miles from the hilltop where his father's estate sat to the suburb house where Lydia's family lived, yet he had walked it.

When the door opened he was leaning against the door frame "Is Lydia here?" His voice spoke half cracking. He didn't know what else to say.

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Kim was actually about to go out to hang out with a few friends and almost crashed into him not seeing him until he spoke.

"huh, yeah, her room." She got a closer look at him. "Edward? You okay? I mean other than your usual Goth self..." Hey her friends weren't around she could show concern right?

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Lydia was indeed in her room, hiding as she did every time they were home on break. Especially on those occasions where Jack seems to disappear without her. Like tonight.

So she's locked away behind closed doors and reading Poe for the upteenth time.

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He held onto the door frame with one hand, looking down at the ground. He was tall but since he normally slouched it hid that from most people, his hair was half in his face but the brown eyes looked at her through the bangs distraught. "My mum's dead." It was all he could say his eyes going back down.

After a moment he finally added "I need Lydia..." He didn't move from where he was, Kim was in the doorway and he didn't want to push past her, so he waited a moment before slipping quietly past her his hands in his pants pockets. There was a bit of a stagger towards Lydia's room, the knock that hit her door was not the normal chipper almost beat of a song way it was just a simple knock.

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She'll admit, the knock does confuse her. Jack never bothers knocking (unless the door was locked) and it didn't sound like Eddy or Jules' normal knocks...and had it been her Dad, Kim, or the Stepmonster it would have been followed by them calling inside. So instead of ignoring it, she's on her feet and opening the door.

And the moment she sees him she knows something is terribly terribly wrong. "Eddy...oh god...what is it?"

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Much like the front door he was holding on too the door frame it was amazing he had walked all the way to the house in the state he was in. He was almost plastered, he only had to hold onto things when he was gone, and he only drank when he was celebrating or something was really wrong. Looking up the eyelinner was running down his cheek again. He stepped forward and wrapped his arms about her. He didn't want to say it again. Not yet. He just needed a moment to gather his bearings.

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The more she saw of him and the more she put together of his state, the more she knew it was bad. As he wrapped his arms around her, she put her own arms around his waist hugging him tightly. She wasn't going to push. She knew pushing never worked. But when he was ready, she was here.

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Pushing was what had lead to the scars up and down his arms that are almost always covered by long sleeved shirts. She was one of the only people who knew why he was never in short sleeves, at least not without arm warmers or something. "She...She feel off the balcony of her hotel." He muttered against her shoulder, he felt terrible because he was always so rude to his mother. Not that they didn't fight like cats and dogs anyway when they had been around one another. He couldn't stand to be near her, but he still loved her. "They said it was quick..."

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She...

The word struck a chord deep down in Lydia and she was suddenly reminded of a similar situation. Calling Eddy in hysterics the night...

"Your mom." She hugged him tighter, rubbing small circles on his back. "I am so so sorry, Eddy. So sorry. You're staying here tonight..."

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He held close to her, stronger then he looked obviously since he tries to make himself appeared smaller less intimidating then he could ever be. As she rubbed his back he closed his eyes "Let's wrap your dad in bubble wrap." He muttered softly against her shoulder. "I don't want to lose anyone else." Her dad had been like family and though he didn't mind Kim's mom he held a close option to Lydia on the woman.

"I'd like to stay... I have to go home in the morning though. lawyers and stuff." He was alone to plan her funeral unlike with his father he had had her, now he was a 16, going on 17 year old orphan. At least his father had been smart enough to grant him that emancipation he had asked for. "No one's gonna mind will they..." He asked before adding "I worked off Dad's burbon..."

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"I could be down with this option..." It wasn't like it wasn't a fear of hers. If anything happened to her dad, she didn't...she didn't know what she would do. Losing her mother had been hard enough. And it was the main reason for Lydia's fascination with death now -- the "suicide" pictures she took. Already her mind was forming another set. Maybe a murder set...something formed around poison?

And he wasn't alone. He had her. And she would help in anyway he needed her to. "No. No one is going to mind. Especially given the circumstances..."

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"We'll buy bubblewrap tomorrow and get him after the egg hunt?" he asked, humor was his defense mechanism sometimes. And Eddy would be down with helping her out, he would always be willing to play model for her if she ever wanted him too. It might be fun and his father's old Lab might be good to use for a back drop. The old chemistry equipment was still all set up. Sometimes Eddy would sit in there for hours when he felt lonely just to remember his father.

"I promised the Lawyer I would stay, and I tried. I needed you though. Tomorrow we should visit your mom and my dad." He spoke softly finally pulling back from the hug as he looked down at her. "...how bad do I look?" He had sobbed half the way there so he was sure he must look a sight.

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"Yes. Definitely."

Ooooh. The lab. She hadn't even thought about the lab. It would be perfect.

As would going to see her mom. "I'd like that. A lot. And I'm sure they'd like it too."

Looking him over, she shrugged. "I've seen worse."

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Hearing the words Kim had stepped back, shocked as she watched him, her hand almost going to reach for his, but she knew that he'd need Lydia more than anything she could say. Though she did wait a few moments before following, just to see what they talked about.

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He nodded softly then and moved to sit on the edge of her bed looking up at her. "Tomorrow shall be bubblewrap, Starbucks for the hangover I'm gonna have and then I'll go see the lawyer. Or the other way around. Either way coffee will happen."

He smiled a little at her reply on visiting their parents "Sounds like a plan for after the lawyer I can grab the car while I'm at home since It's suppose to be hot." He didn't wanna be alone if he could avvoid it but he also wasn't planning to ask Anyone to sit with him with the lawyer or the funeral planning. Unless he felt like he would snap. "We should get some flowers too, I bet they'd like that too." He spoke finally smiling softly. And yes the Lab! The lab would be fun to use.

ran a hand to wipe a tear that had steaked betraying the smile on his face. "...I think I need a shower, you don't think anyone will care do you?" He figured it would be safe to sneak around a few moments without his make up namely if he was likely gonna pass out in the next few hours and with Lydia near by. If nothing else he could borrow hers. Then he sighed a little pushing himself up "I was not ready for this Lydy.... not at all."

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"No one's ever ready for it, Eddy. Jack and I weren't. She was going to the store...was supposed to be gone twenty minutes at the most...but she...she never came back." Lydia frowned. She didn't like thinking about that night. She had only been eight, but it was still as clear as day in her mind. She could still remember the pain. She wouldn't wish that on anyone. Not even Oogie. So to know that Eddy was feeling that now...

"Flowers are great. She loved lillies. We'll get some of those. And why don't I just go see the lawyer with you. It'll save you a stop." And give him the company he so obviously needed.

"And nah. No one will mind."

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Edward nodded stepping back over to pull his best friend into a hug. "I know, I'm sorry to make you have to remember it. That young...I couldn't have held together if I had lost dad back then. Hell I only held together when I lost him becuase of you and Jack" He spoke softly, he hated to remember his father's death. Though that had messed him up pretty bad becuase he had been in the room when his father's fatal heart attack hit. "...Off topic, where is Jack?" He hadn't seen him in a bit so he had to ask.

"I don't want to put that burden on you Lydy. I just have to sign some papers and make everything official. I promise to call if I can't handle it, but this woman is far too chipper about everything." He spoke running a hand through his hair and making a face "Yeah... Showering is gotta happen." He headed for the door. "I'll be right back." He spoke and as soon as he walked through the door he saw Kim there and tilted his head at her. "Hello again Kim." He spoke it loud enough for Lydia to hear he just didn't expect her to be right by the door. Giving her a strange look he started to head on for the shower but touched her shoulder as he passed, maybe becuase he was still half drunk or because she was there who knows but he didn't look back he just went on to shower. He figured the girls needed to talk or something.

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Kim hadn't meant to be caught eavesdropping, when Edward had opened the door she blushed a moment, holding a pillow and extra blanket for Lydia's room figuring he'd be staying the night.

"Huh, yeah hi?" She breathed a small sigh of relief when he walked by. "Lydia, could you tell him I'm sorry for listening in?"

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Normally the thought of Kim listening outside her door would send Lydia into a litany of choice expressions. But tonight her concern for Eddy won over her annoyance.

Nodding, she held out her hands to take the extra pillow and blanket. "I...I will."

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"Thanks." She wasn't sure what else to say so she handed over the items wincing slightly when she heard her step-dad call for her because her friends were at the door.

"It's cool we'll be going out so you two won't have to worry about us bothering you."

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Oh that wince didn't go unnoticed...and later, when trying to fall asleep, Lydia would definitely analyze it and over analyze it. Maybe she'd even ask Jack about it. Cause she always thought Kim liked being the popular little snowflake.

"Ah. Well. Have fun with the sheep."

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I was about twenty minutes later that Edward returned the suit jacket and tie were draped open his arms and the black shirt he generally wore under the suit shirts was showing since he had just slipped the long sleeved shirt back on but didn't button it. Figuring sleep wouldn't be too far off. Why over dress?

"You okay Lydy?" He asked softly as he sat his things down on the floor somewhere, he ran a hand through his mostly still wet hair, he felt strange outwith it piled high in the air light an electrocution victim but it was wet and he had brought nothing with him to fix it. With out his make up he looked a bit off but still very much Eddy. After sitting everything down he moved to sit down not too far from her.

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"Yeah..." She nodded. "Just trying to figure out Kim's end game. That's all." She shook her head. "But enough about her. You know what tonight needs? Really bad horror films."

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"How about White Zombie or The Cabinet of Dr. Caligari?" He spoke as he ran a hand through his hair a moment before pointing to her with a grin "Lady Frankenstein!"

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"How about all of the above?"